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You darkened my mind with more than you know,

with words of pain you say;

that you never realized you said.

Alcohol breath and angry words,

all flood through a little girl's bedroom door.

Tears roll down her face,

not knowing what she did wrong.

Confusion on her mind of all that she has done;

thoughts of her past when she was so naive,

how she thought it was all okay.

When it never really was.

Back when it was minor ways that always escalated;

late nights out and long days after,

yelling at an innocent soul left scars in her mind.

They always say to forgive and forget,

how can a soul with memories forget?

Forget those nights of stumbling into the house,

and banging on the walls going into the bedroom.

How can I forget when it still goes on?

I might be able to forgive you in the future

but I'll never be able to forget.

Forget everything you put me through,

and everything you've said.

The pain is still with me and always will be.

I wish you could see the pain in my eyes,

but when I try, I get hurt even more.

Now I realize it was all in my head tonight;

why am I to blame for everything I never did?

It was always you, but the guilt was always me.

I'm letting go, all of it, and for you?

I'll never forget any of it.

It will never be like it used to be, will it?

That's all I need to forgive;

for it to be just like before.

When I was your everything.

When I was your little girl and nothing was wrong. But it is not.

This might not be the end,

but the end of my guilt,

because it was never me, nut you.

For the end I say so long to the past,

and hello the future.

The future that will embrace me;

and maybe make me forgive and forget the wrong,

you let happen to me.

So this is the end, and the beginning.

-AJ