The Beautiful Disaster of My Imaginarium

Want to know the worst part about having depression and anxiety is? It's having your entire mind and body being pulled into a million directions, not knowing which way to go. It's having this uncontrollable sadness but worrying you're sad over nothing. It's knowing you have a bucket list of things to do but not having the desire to do a single one. It's the desire to not want to live sprinkled with the need to survive. It's getting all the sleep in the world but being in a fo

Learning to love after heart break is rough Overthinking that you aren't worthy of love Varying scenarios in your head of falling in love Each one ending in tears Sinking feelings that love will never find you Til one day life throws a curve ball Overthinking all the self doubt Replacing it with something better, all while Yearning for your perfect for you love -AJ

Drip Drip Drip Splat! Yet another stained memory you stabbed in my mind. Do you know what you do, when you do this to me? Over and over, it's always the same. Do you even think before you yell, or act upon impulse? Why is it always me, and never the other girl who gets the second degree? Day after day, week following week, and year after year; are those stained memories ever going to leave? How could they just relinquish, when you repay old ones with new ones? The memories wi

You were there, there with me on those frightening, sad, scary and happy moments. You were always there, always. Struggling through the years, never really helped. But you were there for me, and in return, I was there for you. Life got difficult and there it all changed. Years of off and on friendship, to now that there is nothing. You are not there. A different face is there, a face so familiar, yet so unknown to me. I wish you were still there for me, but I guess you think

You are my shinning star, you make me shine when I am gloomy. You hold me high when I need a boost the most. You let my true light shine, when others shut it out. Shinning bright, as bright as can be. With you I can be all that I can be, and shine for what I want to shine for. For you I will shine bright forever. -AJ